Where is the time going it is hard to believe I have been at this for the last 13 weeks and some. I have to say that it has been one of the single most life changing events that I have ever had and it has become a way of life for me. But it didn't start out that way. It started out as most things in my life have been in the past and that is in an addiction. Yes I said addiction that is such a strong word but i think it is appropriate and I think that most people deal with it more than they know.
See it is the nature of our ego that it attaches itself to worldly things,things that mean something only to the form in a means to protect itself from extinction because it is scared and as I rode my bike for 30 miles this week or ran my 20 miles I realized that even that originally when I started this whole Ironman it was to feed my ego but it has transmuted into something much greater.
See in training this week I have learned that I don't need to train for my ego I don't need to be addicted to anything other than the love of my spirit our spirit. Like many before me I truly never new there was anything more than the ego I have protected for many years. I was blessed with a strong understanding of myself and have felt conflict for many years between my form and spirit and my understanding of how to marry those two. My whole life I have worked to protect my ego from destruction from the world because I felt that if I lost it I would lose myself. See I knew that if I ran a triathlon that would satisfy my egos need to be special that it would be large enough. If I did this or that I would satisfy a need but on my journey to living an enlightened life I have learned that feeding my ego is a meal that will never end a bill in which I can never truly pay the cost.
I learned that by being attached to things of only just this world of just my form I had lost touch with knowing the things that equal true satisfaction I longed so desperately for the things that make up my soul,my humanity, me and once I truly was able to grasp this concept it was only then I could shift from a nature of addictiveness to one that is choosing to use my works for greater purposes like becoming further grounded in the present moment or as examples to the world around me of the limitless possibilities that are presented when you start to connect and work with the world versus forcing the world to work with you.
I walk away from this week of training physically better as well as mentally better.
My suggestion from this is simple look at your life and find your addiction and be honest about it, remember it may not be what you want to hear at first, and know that you are not whatever it is that you may find and use it as indicator that maybe you have lost connection with the part of you that connects you to the oneness of it all and allow yourself to break free of the mental hold it has if you do the simple act of being aware it will help to start the healing process towards release of the addictions that slightly stop us from being great.
Until my next post
Namaste & God Bless
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